Never had I thought...

     Never thought that I'd start with the word "Never" but then there are times when certain things are given a kick start by this simple word which might carry a huge meaning deep there. It was here at University when I actually realised the fact that many people I have met so far have striking resemblance. Yes, I do believe in making opinions of my own about people after I have had a word with them and the university is the best place you come across all kinds, shapes, sizes etc.

     So today there sits someone, I never talk to and I don't bother to talk to but then there are circumstances I have to. It had never been the same before. We were the best of friends. Then at the university you find a personality, in disguise. you find later about the real side of them. You know you are there to study, make friends, have fun, and at the end of it, move on with your life. You are sitting there, holding yourself back to feel the same again. Whenever you meet those people, you want to talk to them the way you used to but then this world never leaves you all by yourself to analyse what situations have become as of now. Even before you can think of making things better something holds you back.

     I will never forget those moments when I was giving second thoughts to all that was making me go crazy about this world I have recently started exploring. Moreover, I was amazed at the fact that I was the one who was taking things so seriously. It was not long after I recovered my senses that as the world believes in moving on, nobody really gives a second thought to whatever has happened in the past. People are too busy to think about the same stuff over again. I had heard that we need to choose our words carefully. I had learnt the moral of "Look before you leap" but then whats out of the mouth once can't be taken back. Thankfully, I am not repenting on my words I have penned down, though there are chances of editing it (thanks to the technology). So now I can claim to be happier while I make my decisions because now I know the key to remain contended with myself after all that I have gone through after I was admitted to the university and thus lies the reason how the past events have made my weaker side, my stronger and more confident side. Well, to end it all, I really had never thought that I would be moulded perfectly according to the circumstances and would turn out to become better in person. Hopefully, this is just the beginning...

The Beginning...

     I seriously could not find anything to start with, other than my personal experience of how I came to front this world. From my point of view, some people would rather find it too philosophical but the truth is that the actual perspective of this world comes into picture exactly from the mind of a newly born adult. I admit that , as for now, it has been seven months since I joined this university, a step towards building my professional front but the true essence of life was sensed in the first few months.

     To start with, there is this whole new feeling of being all by yourself, especially when your parents have always been so protective towards you. At first you are surrounded by this whole bunch of new faces with their own outlook towards life and apparently an aura of pride of being admitted to an renowned institute. Unfortunately, you even come across those unhappy pupils, shaking their heads in repenting modes for not making it to the college of their dreams. Yes, how could I forget that day when I first met my professors, the air about them that made me a bit nervous when they were around. I remember how I had always dreamt of living a life, with a good group to exchange ideas with while we strolled around the streets in our pajamas, singing to the newly released songs we had heard walking by the nearby located coffee shop. Aah! I know this wasn't too much to ask for from life but then the mere pleasure of living the dream filled my heart with joy.

     I still remember that it hardly took me a day to make acquaintances whom I would greet on the way from my room to the hostel mess and back. I was glad to meet people the very first day of my arrival, who had opted for the same course and we didn't hesitate in asking for each other's company when required. Nevertheless, days passed by and gradually the tears of separation from the parents dried. I didn't actually realise when I had come so close to a few people that the whole day long I would be busy chatting with them and all I could talk to my parents, other than my academics, were these friends of mine. Parents are the happiest people on Earth when they find out about your secure company in the new world you have recently become a part of. I still remember my elders warning me about the destructive world waiting out there for me. I had heard from them that before I can sense I would be all burdened with responsibilities I had never asked for but then that is not something you ask for! However, now that I am all by myself, I realise now that there is much beyond what the professors would teach you and that it would not be long that life would give you setbacks at some point of time that it would turn your world upside down before you can realise that everything happened for the better.